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Dead Pornstar August Ames Revealed Tragic History of Sexual Abuse, Says Therapists Stigmatized Her Profession

Late pornstar August Ames shared her struggles with depression and ostracization from her own family after she was raped by her grandfather.

“When I finally told my dad  he didn’t believe me. The  issue was never resolved.  All my life I grew up a liar  by my dad and his side  of the family.”

Ames, whose real name is Mercedes Grabowski, took her own life this week after she was mobbed by bullies on Twitter in the gay porn industry for saying she wouldn’t want to have sex with “crossover” performers from the gay scene for health reasons.

Speaking to podcast host Holly Randall on Unfiltered in September, the Canadian pornstar spoke candidly about her struggles with depression. “Some days I’ll be fine, and if I’m not doing anything I’ll get these awful flashbacks of my childhood and I get very depressed. I can’t get out of bed and cancel my scenes for like a week or two,” Ames said in the now-deleted podcast episode.

“It was just awful,” she added. “It’s still recent where I have to keep myself occupied or else I start thinking about all that shit and then I fall into a depression. I try to do therapy. I hate that word, I hate therapy.”

Ames explained that she had an “awful” relationship with her dad after she told him that her grandfather had molested her. Ames’ father did not believe her.

“I tried to forget about it and talk to him about how I was feeling about my childhood and everything, because there was a lot of sexual molestation — not from my father but from his — so I had to suffer from being molested by my grandfather,” she said. “When I finally told my dad he didn’t believe me. The issue was never resolved. All my life I grew up a liar by my dad and his side of the family.”

“I would get in contact with some people and then I would feel  badly because they’d be like  ‘what’s your profession and I’d  be like ‘oh, I’m in the adult  industry’ and then I’d feel like  they’re like ‘oh, that’s the whole  reason that you are the way you are’  and then I’d get turned off.”

Ames said she had difficult experiences with therapists because they would dismiss her the instant they learned of her profession.

“I would get in contact with some people and then I would feel badly because they’d be like ‘what’s your profession and I’d be like ‘oh, I’m in the adult industry’ and then I’d feel like they’re like ‘oh, that’s the whole reason that you are the way you are’ and then I’d get turned off,” she said, adding that she was now medicated to treat her bipolar disorder and depression.

During the hour-long conversation, Ames revealed her struggle with drugs. She told show host Holly Randall how a father of the child she was babysitting when she was 15 offered her cocaine to strip naked.

Ames said that she turned to drugs and alcohol to escape her depression for a time, but no longer used them. “I don’t drink alcohol anymore. When I would drink, I’d black out every time. I used to smoke a lot of weed too, I used to be a big stoner but I’ve cut that out too. I just drink water now.”

The late adult performer said that whenever she felt low, she would go through her old photos to look for a happy selfie to post on Instagram.

Source: DANGEROUS.

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  3. Bookish1

    December 9, 2017 at 1:28 pm

    What a sad life. Why do beautiful women want to do porn? I don’t get it.

    • Benevolus

      December 9, 2017 at 5:15 pm

      Read the posts below. I used to think “sex-work” should be legal until I saw some documentaries and realized the women that do this need help, not to be prostitutes and that we, as a country, should not condone in the even more traumatizing work of prostitution and or porn work, but should do our best to protect these people from more hurt and pain (which is what they get in this line of work). It’s really quite awful. Liberals try to put on the act that there are normal women out there that just love doing sex work, no. That is a lie. Normal women do not open their bodies up to strangers, even for lots of money. She was hurting and probably had the impression that was all she was worth, after all, all the men in her life that should have shown her she had value treated her like garbage and should be ashamed all the way to their graves.

      • Dave from Oz

        December 9, 2017 at 10:01 pm

        > I used to think “sex-work” should be legal until I saw some documentaries

        And who were these documentaries made by? The go-to resource on “rescue” industry lies is Maggie McNeil.

        http://maggiemcneill.wordpress.com/

    • Dante Alighieri

      December 13, 2017 at 11:07 am

      money

  4. Daisy

    December 9, 2017 at 2:39 pm

    As a therapist, I’d occasionally have prostitutes as clients (in a social services center where I volunteered). Some of these men and woman had also done film work in the porn industry. Without an exception, each of these people had been severely sexually abused as children. Not one had been believed or offered any help by family, etc (and it was almost always family – particularly step ‘fathers’ who had done the sexual abuse).

    Just like this poor woman, they went on to act out their sexual trauma as so called ‘sex workers’ (a term promoted by heartless Feminists). To a person, they were numbing their pain w/alcohol and drugs.

    May Miss Ames Rest in Peace.

    • Greg

      December 9, 2017 at 6:45 pm

      That is genuinely classy. Thanks Daisy.

  5. endarmalk

    December 9, 2017 at 3:37 pm

    Well the porn industry is not filled with highly educated and emotionally stable people. Most of these people coming into the industry have had some sort of mental, physical, or emotional trauma to begin with.

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  7. Karl Robbers

    December 9, 2017 at 6:21 pm

    I think the real point is being missed. A career in the adult film industry may be seen by some as less worthy or acting out past traumas. It’s not my place, nor anybodys to judge. The real damage in the sad case of August Ames was done when family refused to believe her and “professionals” ceased listening and doing their jobs. The final nail in her coffin was a hate campaign unleashed due to her sin of actually saying what she thought, along with her reasons why. Your past or profession does not reduce your right to free expression.
    Do we not all have that right?

    • Anon

      January 19, 2018 at 2:04 am

      There was no hate campaign unleashed on her people simply criticized her Tweets saying what THEY thought along with their reasons why, she didn’t just give an opinion she made homophobic statements against gay men because she was mad that after telling a porn company she didn’t want to work with a guy who did gay porn they chose him over her. She even hesitated to Tweet about it because she knew people would call out her homophobia but she Tweeted that whoever replaces her in the movie should know he does gay porn attempting to cause HIM to lose work and get bullied by the industry for being bi, she said her reasons for not wanting to work with him and other men who do gay porn was because she didn’t know what they did in their personal life. So people pointed out that she didn’t know what ANYONE did in their personal life but she doubled down on the idea that it was more dangerous with a bi guy in porn, people then highlighted that she was a hypocrite for not wanting to work with bi men when she herself was a bi woman that did plenty of scenes with both women and men (and did scenes with bi guys in the past).

      She kept implying that homophobic stereotype that gay/bi men have dangerous lifestyles and are more likely to give you diseases, one of her Alt Right Trump loving pornstar friends even Tweeted a graphic claiming that the majority of gay guys get HIV and another of her homophobic friends was spreading lies in her mentions that gay guys don’t get tested in order to justify her not wanting to work with them. No one was “bullying” her they were just calling her out on her bullshit she just didn’t like it and was upset by the fact that she exposed herself as a homophobe especially with other companies in the industry not wanting to work with her anymore because of her Tweets, if anything her friends did more harm to her by Tweeting those blatantly homophobic things and lying when someone pointed out they were wrong because it made her seem even more like she has those homophobic views since her good friends do and some of their Tweets were initially attributed to her with her friends sounding like they were speaking for her.

      She knew her reputation was ruined (by her own doing) so she killed herself likely hoping people would focus on her death and not have her go down being remembered as a homophobe that people hate which is exactly how her friends fans and the Alt Right people using this to push their own narrative are trying to spin it and make it about her being “killed” by “bullies”, any other time they would be calling her a snowflake and saying she should’ve found a safe space but since she was homophobic and the people criticizing her were gays and feminist porn stars (A.K.A. “SJWs”) they suddenly believe that cyberbulling is a real thing. The Trump supporters her friends and fans are all ironically behaving like the same bullies they claim everyone else was by stalking the Twitters of anyone who as much as disagreed with her harassing them and calling them murderers whining that they need to be punished (evidently for responding to her PUBLIC Tweets with rational arguments).

      But in reality that Twitter bullshit didn’t play as big a role in her CHOICE to commit suicide as her grandfather molesting her and her father not believing her along with everyone on his side of the family, the molestation and her family turning their backs on her is the main reason she even started doing porn in the first place she had a ton of daddy issues and felt like her family didn’t love her causing her to become addicted to drugs and alcohol and be hypersexual with Dissociative Identity Disorder (Multiple Personalities usually emerge when someone is molested at a young age or raped as an adult). Close friends have said she was depressed for months leading up to her suicide so it wasn’t some random people on Twitter that caused her to commit suicide, but either way the only one to blame for this is August she’s the murderer she decided to kill herself selfishly leaving behind her boyfriend brother porn friends and fans who all loved her. They’re angry but they don’t want to blame her they want to blame everyone else instead, her punkass brother should start with his own family including their father who didn’t believe her when she was molested by their grandfather.

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  9. Dave from Oz

    December 9, 2017 at 9:59 pm

    > “she was mobbed by bullies on Twitter in the gay porn industry for saying she wouldn’t want to have sex with “crossover” performers from the gay scene”

    So, there were certain people she didn’t want to have sex with. And a whole bunch of people decided that she ought be required to have sex with them.

    There’s a simple word for “being forced to have unwanted sex”.

  10. Edmond James de Rothschild

    December 10, 2017 at 2:43 am

    Tis the season for gift giving. Happy Hanukkah.
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  11. Penny

    December 10, 2017 at 6:18 am

    The abuse August Ames suffered as a child is horrendous and yes it put her on her path to this profession. But that’s not what killed her. What killed her was the gaystapo. The already fragile psyche of August Ames was grotesquely ripped apart by gay activists and allies who obviously do not believe in body autonomy for women and literally demanded she kill herself. If you read the bombardment of tweets these evil people sent her it would make you sick. They need to be arrested. They killed her as sure as if they shoved the pills down her throat (or whatever method she used, her husband is keeping that silent). August had her problems yes. She chose a path that many of us see as tragic. But to be harassed and ridiculed and fired/blacklisted because she didn’t want to have sex with certain people probably felt like when she was a child and her filthy grandfather didn’t care how much she cried, her body was not her own to decide what happened to it. Repulsive people.

  12. Skobb

    December 15, 2017 at 3:26 am

    Fo the sake of stating what the real problem was. She was called out for a tweet with prejudiced content that directly stigmatised male performers in gay porn and indirectly sitgmatised gay men as diseased.

    No one forced her to have sex with any man and no one was demanding to have sex with her. A private “no” is all she needed to do instead of vicing a prejudice gratuitiously on social media.

    If someone gratuitiously said something prejudiced/discriminatory about you on social media would you not respond to that person to defend yourself? Does the right to criticise prejudice stops when it is about LGBT people. Don’t call fair criticism of prejudice bullying; don’t lump all the discussion into the box of “cyberbullying” for the sake of keeping facts honest intellectually.

    By the way, gay men don’t sleep with women so no gay man had in mind having sex with her. I think people have forgotten what “homosexuality means”. It was mainly male performers who felt offended by her words (most of them identify as bisexual and that’s why they wordon bith gay and hetero porn) and felt compelled to educate her on the issue and many other people were even women who responded to her.

    She had a along history of depression stemming from sexual abuse when she was a child. The fuss on twitter was not the cause but most likely the last drop in a cup full of pshychological problems she had to deal with.

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    December 30, 2017 at 1:56 pm

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